2018
Love
Love
Mysterious and blinding
Yet a focal point
So beautiful and binding
When two souls resonate
With a force so natural it must be innate
The beauty you see
In the eyes of me
A queen
Ruler of my heart of hearts
Lock and key
Oh how I’ve entrusted thee
With the possibility
Of a great love
Something old and wise
Yet so new and youthful
You have this heart, love and focus
If I am to be truthful
These young eyes are blind to see
A life without you next to me
You’re inspiration with every expiration
A perfect combination of the worst and best traits
Perfect in your imperfections
Impervious to a cold heart for me
Oh how I wonder at the possibility
Of where this love will lead
The way you smile and tease
Encapsulates my heart, pulling me closer
Til it feels as though it’s only you and I
As we kiss our lips brush the sky
All I need is love
Love is all you need
Oh how it feels to be freed
From past negativity
And a lack of sympathy
His pain and his scars
From it she bars (him)
Past mistakes and insecurities
Lead to fear and uncertainty
Upon her grace he looks and is born again
Truly the woman he loves is heaven sent
And while others were hellbent on his dissatisfaction
She has the opposite reaction
She offers love and praise
Hope and promise
All in all its
A miracle, a sight to see
And to think that even he could be
Loved
Sugar
So sweet
But in life sometimes bittersweet
It’s the ones you meet
That in life teach one to treat
Any situation with patience
Doctored results are for the patients
Yes it’s difficult
And wonderful
All the highs
And all the bull
Focusing solely on the surface
Leave you without a purpose
It irks,
It’s
Worth it to struggle and go down
Cuz positive energy’ll come around
And even when the sun is down
I stay shinin’ for you
A silver lining for the karma
Belief and confidence
Better an optimist
Yes there’s some downsides
Focus on the positives
I love you, I love you
Just know you have all of this
Whole hearted and complete
Your seat
At the table, I will always hold open
Hopin’ that when you’re called for you’ll take it
Always need somethin’ sweet in the morning-sugar in your coffee
Don’t forsake it
Never forget how sweet it is to fall in love
‘Cuz once you’ve done it once
It’s never done
A craving for sugar like candy,
That’s what you are to me
A treat, enjoyable at anytime
Still bursting with flavor in sour times
The keys and locks that
Tie back
And contain a love that
Is pure and unique
Making temptation obsolete
For when one has it all there is nothing more sweet
Why?
Why I find
It so difficult at times
To do what’s right
Or what I might
Consider kind and selfless
Rather than
Harsh and selfish
It all seems to end
With me in tears
And you’re all ears
Hearing my apology
Letting me know it’s fine and that you love me
Yet I can’t seem to understand
How a man
So human, who so often aims for perfection
Is now giving so much less than
To the people who deserve better
Wrapped up in all your love like a good sweater
Yet I still don’t see
What’s wrong with me
And possibly
It’s simply humanity
Oh how banal and human of me
Please accept my deepest apology
For not seeing that I should do better
And that to you all I am tethered
Not just by fate but by circumstance
So I raise thee to my size instead of ants
Forgive me for my mistakes
And love me harder for it
If ever there was a rip in imagination to the real world, then you tore it
As a man I will own up and take responsibility
Because we are all one family
And community
So why have I not seen before to strive for unity?
Too Close
Too close,
It’s too much
Not what you’d expect
But
Expectations are high
The clarity is so slow
She asks for no mo’
One foot in the do’
That’s a lot to ask for
Hinging it all on hope
But, really what’s the score?
See clear with the scope
Emotions are on high
Cuz the time left is low
I hope to see you fly
Oh the places you’ll go
When it’s time to spread wings
I’d never hold you back
When it comes to these things
It’s hard for him to keep track
He’s just trynna do right
But his mind is too packed
So when he says or does slight
That’s not really the fact
Carry it on his back
Put those thoughts in a bag
Thinking too much ‘bout future
To focus on what is had
Halfhearted apologies
Sayings like “my bad”
He’s holding too tight
Nahh he won’t let her breathe
But that’s not what’s right
What’s needed is ease
They could work through it all,
With all due speed
He’s just gotta stand tall
And understand her needs
The limitations of all
Should be best understood
Should never ask her what’s wrong
And just make sure she’s good
Give her the space that she needs
And time just to be
Never ask too much from her
And don’t expect it all
Sacrifice your pride, it goeth before the fall
Repeat
Repeatedly
Again and again
Over his knee he bends
Her back and breaks
It takes
A fool to hurt her
No truer
Has it ever been
That her words are heaven sent
Each blessing the air with a sweet wind
As time winds down
He takes her crown
As it has fallen from head and grace
To be placed
On pedestal
Irreversible
Until she is again his queen
The mean(s)
By which
Life has switched
Position and classification
The illumination
Of a cycle so vicious yet human
The true man
Understands how to best it
He knows not how to prevent it
A smart man
For in his hand
Is the key to reflection
And he should mention
That the power he holds
Unfolds when grip is lost and mind is sluggish
Balance tips and words are rubbish
He’s done it
100 times
A trend he wishes to defeat
But he isn’t saved from a time bomb on repeat
Upset
Upset
He really doesn’t get
What’s his issue
The flaws in his tissues
A mind broken
But he’s hoping
For change
But lacks it in himself
Take a second
Pride on the shelf
He hurts her
But the pain is shared
Linked
He thinks
To do right but instead
Slights
The knife cuts deep
A thousand to make her weep
He feels his promises feeble
At times self accusatory
Called evil
He trusts her more than he trusts himself
Couldn’t trade her for all the wealth
The opportunity for love and happiness
Often escapes him and this
Causes him to lose self
Counter to his mental health
Neither first nor last
His past
And present shape the descent
Further in love he falls
Observing times’ passage
If truly he had it
As he wished
For her he’d be perfect
No lack of love or heart
She dreamed of a prince
His only wish to play the part
Unrealistic
Idealic
But not what she wants nor wishes
The pain of distance from her love and kisses
He fears for himself
Seeing a failure
Though she sees greater
To be her all, his sole will
Yet she cries still
Anger and fear consume her at times
The fault is solely mine
The reason she’s…
Upset
Greatest Mistake
Our greatest mistakes
Often caused by fear or pain
Driven by a force without name
What’s taken and given
All in the end
Comes to nothing
Issues are resolved
Love is lost
Love is found
It’s either you swim
Or you drown
Caught up in how you think it all should be
When actually
And honestly
It is what you see
Mistakes and mishaps
Allow it to pass
Do not reshape and relapse
Issues
Things are fucked up
I’m not thinkin clear
Why’s it like this?
What’s brought me here
It’s hard to understand these split personalities
Of the same body but different souls fighting for supremacy
The sweet feeling of fist on wood
I wish he would
Dare to test me when I’m in moods like this
Not in control of the words and rhymes I spit
More dangerous then a bull in a china shop
The feeling of watching that fine china drop
Broken inside
Put back the pieces of that shell where he may hide
The true nature of a man in his situation
Cloudy eyes, shadows all around him, feeling the alienation
Chills through him as the pain kills to him
Deep breath
Open up ya chest and let the anger out
These foolish words sprouting needless seeds of doubt
Deepest apologies
For my current ideology
Thought to make things right
Ended up doing you wrong
But I’m not losing sight
Use the bang of this gong
To inspire in me
Eyes with which I see clearly
Because I hold her dearly
Anger issues, oh dear me