2024

When, too close to the heart that barbed arrow strikes

How cupid designed with its spikes

to entangle, your emotions become mangled

Blind as you may be to the seeds

You reap what is sown, and in cases it may exceed

Our capacity for understanding

Over time the terms come to light

you’ve signed out of sight

A contract which binds you to someone

Reversible though it may be,

to recuse oneself isn’t done painlessly 

Rotting what was once looked at in glee

Words become daggers in the heart,

tears crucify an old wound

As best as you tried an ending has come all too soon

Communication fails as we grasp at straws

No longer holding water which has slipped through our fingers 

A taste of what once was, in my brain it lingers

How do I say goodbye when I haven’t let go

In days times I’ll have to let you know

Rules defined what we had

An hourglass turns before it all goes bad

Not sure if I measure up to the gait,

a turned back, how many steps must I walk to escape

The air leaves my lungs as I’m landing

Forever a mark on my life, a familiar banding

Broken and reassembled

Our love not nearly as nimble

as the first time I said “I love you”

Though it pains me to say

the game has been played and I’ve lost to you in the end

All I had was given

Is it still possible to try again with revisision?

Is this all just my decision?

Questions I’m too scared to have you answer

If ever in my mind I imagined eternity, you were her

Easy for friends to say I’ve lived and I’ve learned

Difficult for you to know how deeply I yearned

Praying that this isn’t solely my turn